My New Year's Resolution for 2019

• Quit speculation

Last year I went through a hard time in tackling my depression. The worst side appeared when I was engaged in investment in a speculative way. I also bought expensive information for sale and investment tools, which didn't work well. My doctor admits depression may lead us to spend much money. So I hope I can control my zest for investment more wisely this year.

• Keep balancing work and life

Toward the end of last year I could barely manage to retrieve concentration in my day job, though I still feel drowsy while I'm at desk and my boss looks grumpy when he finds me idling. I'm doing my best anyway. I think I had better limit my working hours to work more efficiently and to have some rest enough to get over depression, but it seems difficult for some reasons. My work load as a mother and office worker is quite heavy when I have to get over depression. I hope I can handle the problem better this year.

• Become a successful giver

I'd like to be more helpful for others, and find out how I can be helpful. I have so many things I want to try. I'm a translator, writer, teacher, astrologer, musician, and artist. I must find out what I had better work on depending on every occasion. I hope my passion will guide me toward the right path, whatever mission I would undertake this year.

• Read many good books

I love reading books. They are so helpful in understanding the true meaning of happiness in my life. I hope I can discover many books which will enlighten me this year.

• Take a moderate exercise

I gained much weight last year. Probably it was because of the medication. I had to replace almost all of the trousers I had. I'd also like to try going on a diet to lose some weight.

 In the end, I'd like to finish writing this article by wishing that this year will bring you a lot of happiness!


昨年は、投資の成績が振るわず、うつ病と闘いながらも、自分らしいワークライフバランスをなんとか見出すことができ、一年を締め括ることができました。
今年は、投資の方法を修正しながら、本業も副業も一生懸命していきたいと思います。
詐欺まがいの情報商材に騙されたり、無鉄砲に投機的な行動を取ってしまうのは、うつ病の症状の一つでもあります。
子供が生まれる前には、パチンコも好きだった私です。実両親も好きなので、ギャンブル好きは遺伝です。子供が生まれてからはパチンコに行けないので、その代替として投機的な行為に及んでしまうのだと思います。そういう対象がないと、ドーパミンが出ないかのように脳が騙されてしまっている状態です。
そして、iPhoneのゲームに夢中になってしまうと、育児や家事に支障が出ることがあるのも、ゲームがないとドーパミンが出せない状態になってしまっているせいなのだと思います。
今年は、少しでもそのような状態から抜け出したいと思います。投機的行為やゲーム以外で、前向きにドーパミンを出すことができる活動、例えばエクササイズや音楽、瞑想、創作活動、アートなどのためにもっと時間を使いたいと思います。
又、副業の翻訳や易占のお仕事も、できる範囲内で頑張り、広く世の中の人々の役に立ちたいと思います。

昨年の様々な失敗をバネにして、今年の幸運を願いたいと思います。

Boards of Prayers at Kotohiragu Shrine